"Until we make the unconscious conscious, it will continue to dictate us and we will call it fate." -Jung
I started painting in high school and continued in college because it was only in my drawing and painting classes that I felt my anxiety and depression ease. I made my decision to pursue the arts because of this. I didn't realize I was making life decisions based on what was helping me cope at the time. I just knew that I had an inner peace when I was in the arts building at K-State and Northern Colorado. Drawing and painting always allowed me to transcend to a place of true peacefulness.
Although I wouldn't advise making decisions for life based on my formula in college, I am thankful that I pursued the arts. Painting has helped me through many phases of life; divorce, breast cancer, taking care of aging parents, and many other times I've experienced uncertainty, fear and anxiety. Painting always comes to the rescue as I mix pigment with water and allow it to mingle on the paper. It's that process, that meditation that is at the heart of why I do what I do. It is at once exhilarating, cathartic, and calming. Unlike anything else in this world.
When we can put the unconscious out for the world to see, whether verbally or creatively, we allow the wounds inside to get air and stop festering. We can start to heal those deeply hurt parts of ourselves - the ones that show up on the outside as depression, bad choices, anxiety, or addiction.
All of us have a creativity that needs to be nurtured. Whether it's painting, writing, cooking, singing, playing the drums, gardening or refurbishing old cars. We each have something that needs to come out in a way that only your unique spirit can shape it.
Find that thing, make it a practice and start pursuing your soul's true purpose.
You are one in a million!
You are here, now, and have a purpose. No matter what has happened in the past.
You matter and you are loved.
And you are not alone!